A love letter to overthinking

 

Dear overthinking,

 

I don’t like you, or maybe I do? When it comes to you my mind is a constant battlefield. Thinking about you I realise that you’ve been with me for most of my life. I started doubting so many things and for a long time I thought that it was all my fault. As you get older you (fortunately) start to realise that your social surroundings and your upbringing play a big role as well. One thing doesn’t change though, you are the one who has to work through it, you are the one who has to pick up all the broken pieces, you are the one who has to work against your own mind sometimes.

 

Still, I don’t know if I like your or if I even should like you. Because overthinking is also a reminder that as a person, you sometimes just care too much. It is a painful reminder sometimes. On the other hand, I also like to think that caring is a good thing. But it is hard to not miss everything that is worth feeling while you are overthinking. It is hard to not to miss chances while overthinking, because meanwhile you should just have taken the leap of faith!

 

I’m not sure if anyone needs this reminder, but overthinking leads you absolutely nowhere. It is honestly like a rocking chair; it gives you something to do that’s for sure but it doesn’t get you anywhere in life. To me overthinking has a lot to do with being in control. I’m fully aware of the fact that you can’t control everything especially not in life but being aware of something is easier than letting something else that is related to it go. I know that we sometimes just have to let go and see what happens because that is life and it can bring you the most beautiful things and moments but it is easier said than done.

 

Living our dreams is hard when we are trying to get over living our fears every single day. Overthinking unfortunately makes it even harder to get out of living your fears. To me there is only one thing that will give you the power of working towards living your dreams, act on them! Slowly but surely, you can overcome those fears. At the end of the day when you look at everything you’ve done that day, you’ll see that you’ve actually took step into the right direction. They might be very small but you took them and that is all that matters.

Life is worth living even if it sometimes feels like you have to fix the mistakes other people made in your life.

Kind of feels like a big rant today about different things but that’s okay. The last weeks of the year are starting and like always it feels like I’m short on time. 2023 is starting soon and let me tell you there are many things I’ve planned, many goals I have, but I always try to remind myself that the most important things in life cannot be “achieved” in a way and that even small steps towards a bigger goal are important, worth it and enough!

 

I once read the quote “A overthinking is someone who also overloves” and I love that one. So, when I’m stuck in my mind and I’m asking myself why I am the way I am I think about this. Because I can’t be mad at myself for loving and I can’t be mad at myself for caring!

 

All my love,

 

Anna